A L L M E.
name; Lindsay Michele they call me Linz. i live in-Lodi; you spread ur legs & they spread the word representin` new jersey* holler? B0YFRiEND? nahh bloody fuckin' romance >> i'm single ;D i am not you.. things i do; chillax` have fun; DRUMS- cell/tele phone" write poems & play softball [#2O] kick ass color- this pink rockin; black/white adidas > black / pink etnies; BLACK & white DC`s s'all good. M.A.S.H? two-family house' on a dead end.. live with; mom, dad & 2 older bro's.. the youngest of four & only girl. i'm worth> $ 1,613,8O6.O0-- according to humanforsale.com> mixed with; american italian & chinese. listening too; SENSES FAiL* Thursday" Armor For Sleep; BRAND NEW-- boys night out.. The Get Up Kids; Coheed & Cambria.. Thrice something corporate- etc.
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" Heartbeat"
i heard a noise late last night; the temperature dropped & my breath became visible, it was an unfamiliar noise and it gave me a fright.. and i sat in the dark, vapid corner miserable.
it was like i heard it once before.. very repetitive; it taunted me continuously.. so competitive; rocking back and forth, i had no where to turn- in this empty room with nothing but a candle to burn.
looking around, this incredibly immaculate place; getting the urge to just tear down the walls.. creating this design in my head, they turn to lace; this persisting sound calls...
dizzy, i lay down.. the sound begins to get low; still confused on why it doesn't show. the walls are getting closer & are now black; can't find what i seem to lack.
eyes are getting heavy and the sound came to mind, i need to get up and leave this seat; the sound was lost and no longer able to find.. it was gone, forever, my one last heartbeat.
made by lindsayy xo
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don't be a wannabe. give respect & lay off the  my talent.
s t a l k e r s
my fuckin' hit counter is down temporarily so idk its just gonna say " N/A " for now.. hopefully it'll be back.. but `til then.. keep stalking me
the worst thing a guy can do is make you fall for him with no intentions in catching you
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Sunday, May 30, 2004
[feeeel-ing; tired. ]
[eaR-gasm; nothing.] edit on may 29*
nothin' happend today. got ready, hung out wit dee nd ash.. we did wutever. ash had to go somewhere; so she left. me nd dee walkd to fig leaf lol nothin' LAD about that man.. waste of time. on the way there we passed middle school.. john, kenny, tj, nd netto were sk8in' there. we talked for a while, then left. me nd dee walkd back to my house, askd my mom if she could bring us to clifton to a thrift shop; but they close in like 20 mins. so she said another time.. then we called ash to see if she wanted to see a movie.. she said yeah. we went to see the day after tomorrow... but it sold out like 2 mins. before; so we saw van helsig instead.. i think thats how u spell it lol. it was pretty good; except for the part where the guys in front of us kept turnin' around and talkin' to me.. askin if he could switch spots so he can sit next to me. that was a no. the ending was so fucked up, i got mad lol. as soon as the movie ended we got up and like ran out, we didnt want those ghetto guys to ask us to chill.. so yeah called my mom she picked us up, dropped dee nd ash off, gene called me in the car.. talkd to him for a while. and uh thats it. not really a great day. oh yeah lol we went to the mall b4 the movies; some like friggen mexican kid who barely spoke english started waving at us, and like wanted to dee's name, he was like " can i no name? " she goes, "annamarie" ash was like we gtg bye. so we left, he like stared at us until we were outta site.. man what a loser. lol just had to say that.. i saw this kid taht moved 2 years ago at the mall; joe.. he changed alot.. from like all jockish to rock.. he pierced his own lip yesterday wit a saftey pin.. yes boy has he changed.. lol ok well im gonna go; slice 'em open. xo
Posted at 12:23 am by her.
Saturday, May 29, 2004
[feeeel-ing; wishful. ]
[eaR-gasm; Break Myself.]
ok.. last night i cleaned my room; and it took fuckin' FOREVER ! no lie. i didnt think it'd take that long, man i wanted to fuckin' cry.. just one section of my room to another.. it was horrible. but now my room is CLEAN (: its not gonna stay that clean tho.. lol idk why but im a messy girll. oh well; jo called me last nite; he was with nick.. he was being mean. i havent talked to him in a while, and nevermind. Anyway, im pissed at that fuckin' SOMEONE, he's fuckin' 2FACED and omg, he's such a douche bag! if i could, i'd like move just to get away from him.. well i could move, but i dont want too.. man he's an asshole- i didnt think someone could be like that, other than Alex.. he really has problems, and should def. think before he lies, and tells MY FRiENDS stuff about me, like they arent gonna come back and tell me, asshole. my away message is dedicated to him, "you are.. bad-tempered, BiTCHY, cantankerous, churlish, contemptible, dangerous, despicable, difficult, DiRTY, disagreeable, dishonorable, down, EViL, formidable, ignoble, ill-tempered, infamous, knavish, liverish, LOUSY, malicious, malign, nasty, perfidious, pesky, ROTTEN, rough, rude, rugged, scurrilous, SHAMELESS, sinking, SOUR, the lowest, treacherous, troublesome, unfriendly, unpleasant, vexatious, vicious. -i fucking hate you"
-Man, i dont even know how to explain how he makes me feel.. like i just want to run away; and never come home. Him & all his little loser fuckin' friends are so immature! i cant believe we all hung out with them.. as if they fuckin' OWNED us, yeah ok. i've never been so.. eh.. wuts the word for it?? DiSRESPECTED. thats the one, he's a fuckin' faggot. now i know many of you prob. dont even know what im talking about, and you really dont.. cause all the ppl who i tell end up hating him. cause really, he should go and fuckin' stay in garfield, man fuckin' garfield is our rivals, dont fuckin' come here n e more. NO1 likes you. and you have a "reputation" to keep, or some shit like that. haha you fuckin' crack me up! yeah, you call it a repuation.. and i fuckin' call it RAPE. im done. i'll edit L8R, slice 'em open. please.
Posted at 12:18 pm by her.
Friday, May 28, 2004
[feeeel-ing; different. ]
[eaR-gasm; Me and the Moon.]
WOW; Linz is fuckin' cleanin her room.. wtf is up with that??i never clean my room.. and its really lookin TERRiBLE; lol. so i thought maybe it was about time i did something.. and im in the mood to clean idk why.. maybe cause i bought 5 new pairs of PANTiES [-; that could be it.. lol everytime i buy new clothing i always put them away all neat and nice lol and end up cleanin' my room.. so yeah i was in the middle of cleaning.. dee was over cause me and her were chilln' at zee mall today hehe. we were fuckin' boy scoutin` and crazzayy LAD! its fuckin' awesssome. haha man so much fun times wit chu girrly! lol well yeah so she was usin' zee computer.. as i was cleanin my room- cause she doesnt have her internet at her new house cause shes not so sure how to plug it in lol.. so yeah then she called her pops and he said 10:30pm gots to be out nucca. so uh yeah he came to get herr.. and i waited outside wit her... now im here; decided to write an entry since i missed a day.. feel all left out pooor bloggy lol.. and uhm nothin's really new.. i havent seen Nick in a while his car broked down.. ): pooor nick's car. ehh.. saw tara today at GSP; hehe she was workin' didnt wanna get her in trouboleee. and uh thats basically it.. my pool's open and swimmable so ya noe what that means! fuckin' crazzayyyy days [-: cant wait! oh yeah well im gonna go and get back to cleanin' my fuckin torando rooooooom; if i had a digital camera i'd show u it.. but i dnt lol so oh well. bye xo slice 'em open.
**for Dee`**
fast, pad, & nge(knee) hahahah.. fuckin great!
dont like him = uh *ow* my "knee" hurts! lol
fast lag = damnit !! lol jus wasnt meant to be.
nge otto = yuck man lol petifile.
nge yet = wooo; horny little ones.
** lol u get the point.. **
- cant wait for LAD; gonna be fuckin' crazzzay! [-;
Posted at 10:51 pm by her.
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
i decided to write an entry cause im bored; sejats singing like always... gin and juice to be precise. woah precise didnt use a thesaurus for that one bitches!! lol (belch) ok.. well 5th period is fuckin boring and theres nothing to do.. mr.kaider is ghetto.. so he dont care that im writing one.. me and sejat did all our work for once (: hehe it was realy easy.. sejat likes to suck dick.. but hey we all knew that already!! lol j/k me and sejat are getting married.. in his room .. so we can play video games and eat chips (: haha lol but he still didnt get me a ring.. that fuckin bitch! lol ok ok " sejat: i got u a ring!" .. me- uh ok that pen cap thing counted.. lmao what a loser.. this fuckin comp. is so slow.. and i have michael desomma screamin in my other room with 2 losers.. preferably some tall ass bitch who walks like a dildo is stuck up her ass and then fuckin loser who thinks she can wear a skirt.. when she DEFINATELY cant. anywayy.. sejats laughin.. cause he laughs at everything as a matter a fact hes laughin cause i wrote that in here.. what a loser! hehe but hes MY LOSER. no-one else.. so hands off mo'fos. ok well im pretty bored.. we still got like 69 mins.. i mean lol that was SeJAT!! loser.. we still got like 20 mins left of class and i wanna leave cause im so fucking bored. i was just showingoff my typing skills to sejat.. hehe STOP FUCKING SCREAMING IN MY GOD DAMN EAR DESOMMA get a fuckin life.. anywayyy kristina and mike are sharing a computer on the other side of the room like always .. they are like fuckin unseperatablee whatever however u spell it.. wish i had a thesaurus right next to me.. but all i got is SEJAT. and thats sex.. lol right joe sex sells so i got that right now.. ahahahahah well nothing else to write about cause uh there isnt and all im doing is rambling on .. and sejats just reading along.. so yeah i gues i be out. peace xo fingers crossed; legs spread xo oh yeah slice 'em open.. id apreciate it. thanx
Posted at 12:24 pm by her.
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
[feeeel-ing; whatever. ]
[eaR-gasm; gizmo snoring.]
We ALL hide behind masks. i hate when people call me perfect; well not just me- but i hate when people call other people perfect or whatever. no-one's perfect. when i was little i told SOMEONE(wont mention who) that i wanted to be an actress; and HE responded with.. "you cant act." man, do u no how to crush a gal's dreams. i was little too.. and i realized that im a great actress.. i go to school and act normal.. like nothings bothering me when really inside so many things are running through my head at once i just want to scream. >=O right there proves of how good of an actress i am.. since the only real time i am my true self is when im alone.. for friends, strangers, school, parents, brothers, family- etc. i put on an act. An act of what they want to see; and what im NOT. so really- he didnt crush my dreams; i might not become a professional actress like on the big screen but really my whole life is one big fuckin' movie. it'd be rated R for all the explicit language; and the verbal abuse. Drama throughout; and tears at the end. my dreams have come true; im an actress- starring in the most violent/rough movie.... life.
Posted at 11:59 pm by her.
Monday, May 24, 2004
im DONE with.. life; & the paraphernalias iNVOLVED. im DONE with.. attitudes & iNHABiTANTS getting their way. im DONE with the STUBBORN-NESS of the moonlight shine. im DONE with your evil ways. im DONE with the dry ideas that you think in your head.. im DONE with all the iNEXPLiCABLE happenings. im DONE with looking over the edge, that leads to the CONSOLiDATED ground. im DONE with washing the blood away from these WOUNDS. But im not DONE with this world, not just yet.. PROVE to me that you're not how i THiNK you're going to be; & i'll be FOREVER greatful.
Posted at 11:54 pm by her.
Tomorrow will come eventually ):
[feeeel-ing; sad. ]
[ear-gasm; birds.]
DaniElle*s mOving!!
)': i'LL MiSS YOU SO MUCH :'(
Posted at 05:45 pm by her.
Sunday, May 23, 2004
the moment that i live for..
`ANTHEM OF OUR DYiNG DAY.
the stars will cry the blackest tears tonight ; and this is THE MOMENT that i live for .. i can smell the ocean air ; and HERE i AM pouring my heart onto these rooftops ; just a GHOST TO THE WORLD; thats exactly.. exactly what i need . From up here the city lights burn ; like a 1,000 miles of fire ; and im here to sing this anthem .. OF OUR DYiNG DAY. For a second i wish the tide would SWALLOW every inch of this city ; as you gasp for air tonight . i'd scream this song right in your face if you were here , i swear i WONT MiSS A BEAT. cause i NEVER, never have before. From up here the city lights burn ; like a 1,000 miles of fire ; and im here to sing this anthem .. OF OUR DYiNG DAY. Of our dying day , of our dying day , of our dying- day . For a second i wish the tide would SWALLOW every inch of this city ; as you gasp for air tonight !! From up here the city lights burn ; like a 1,000 miles of fire ; and im here to sing this anthem .. OF OUR DYiNG DAY. < /3 Posted at 01:25 pm by her.
Saturday, May 22, 2004
[feeeel-ing; pissed off.]
[ear-gasm; a/c. ]
ok; well today was gay. i woke up at like 1:30pm ate a bowl of cereal; took a shower.. then called sheep & she said she wanted to play catch so0 i said OK; we went to amp and played catch no1 was there so i was like arite.. it was nice, but it was hot. so yeah jo called and i told him i was at the park; and he was just walking there so yeah he gets there and he's talkin' to us as were playin' catch; then natas & netto get there.. then these other kids from clifton get there; one of them was pretty cute; lol dee..um then wat happened?? oh yeah since it was so hot me dee & sheep decided to have a water fight; so we went back to my house; dee changed into one of my shirts; and i put a bathing suit under my shirt; it was fun.. netto got mad cuz we wet this little park where he was sk8in oh well lol; then we all hung out.. we got cold so we went back to my house dee borrowdd a pair of jama pants; and we all dried off it was nice and cool out now.. we went back to amp and chiled s'more..pido was teachin' me to olly however u spell it lol i got it down on the woodchips but on the concrete im too scared; lol i'llget it !! .. eventually haha; i honestly dunno why i hang out with all those people cause theyre really immature yeah so fuck that.. um all this other shit happend; fukin' gay! then gene pantsd me and video cam'd it that got me really mad.. cause i didnt think gene was like that; and in the fuckin process of it all he cut my hip yeah; and uh all this gay shit.. oh fukin' well i dont give a shit no more.. sheep is sleepin' over gtg & ther was my fuckin' edit on today; which totally fuckin BLEW ! fuckin' slice 'em open PLEASE. idtuwltfainhowueaidwtwgfia
Posted at 11:26 pm by her.
[feeeel-ing; sleepayy. ]
[ear-gasm; identity crisis.] -Thrice [=
Well; i just woke up a couple mins. ago; Dom called me & woke me up.. he felt like an asshole but i told him that i was waking up any time soon anyways.. lol he goes oh now i feel lesser of an asshole. idk wut i wanna do today; lol last entry i said that i wanted to sit at home and do nothing; but thats impossible 4 me (: i think im gonna go to the mall or something; i figured thats the easiest thing to do.. i went to bed mad early last night like 12:00am; man i was talkin' to Gene on the computer... and usually after that i talk to him on the phone but i couldnt keep my eyes open; so i told him i was leaving.. it was weird; lol but yeah i layed down and fell asleeeeep i was exhausted all the shit; like getting back from the trip & then chillen with every1 yess; it was tiring.. well right now im about to get in the shower; but i decided to write a quick entry first.. oh yeah and my title- i dont get it.. "backspace"?? lol i just looked down and saww the backspace key and said thats my title.. i havent talked to Rory in a while ): lol last time was me and him texting eachother at the hotel thursday night - fri. morning hehe yepp; hes never online that much n e more. oh well; ok well im going to go and take a shower.. then see whats goin' on with everyone.. i'll edit l8r on what went down. hehe slice 'em open. xo </3 ilusfm
Posted at 02:05 pm by her.
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